Wednesday, February 20, 2019

Living in the hospital in 2019...

February 2019
As mentioned... Eli looked awful prior to coming in the hospital this time around, but in a different way. The week before he started showing some signs of increased congestion - we thought he had a cold starting... He also had some increased irritability - so we increased some of his new pain medications... But ultimately on Sunday 2/3 (Super Bowl Sunday), Eric and I were looking at each other knowing that we'd be back in the ER soon. On 2/3 he vomited stomach acid and had been refluxing/ heaving a few times - things he had not done since October. He also spiked a fever that fluctuated a little with Tylenol, but stayed consistently in the 100-101 range. Fever was the number one warning sign we were told to look for with an infection from a PICC line - the biggest downside of a PICC line. So again... We called all our people for Eli, and the general consensus was that this could just be a common cold and to wait it out a little more. Eli in the evening of 2/3 vomited his medications (never a good sign), he slept until about midnight... but then was up heaving the rest of the night. He vomited all morning medications within minutes of giving them, so not long after... Eric was on his way to the ER with Eli. Because of his fever, risk for infection, and not really being sure of what was going on (thinking an infection at this point)... Eli went from ER to PICU! It has been 2 years since was in the PICU... typically he just goes to the regular Pediatric floor.
ER waiting
ice packs
Once in the PICU they were really working on getting his fever down and getting him comfortable. His fever got up to a 104, so they had him in just a diaper with ice packs on. He was still heaving and vomiting. Since the biggest thought was infection based on his symptoms, they started treating him with antibiotics and Eric met with the Infectious Disease (ID) doctor that day. On 2/4 he started on 3 different antibiotics: one to treat if infection was coming from PICC line, one to treat for pneumonia because they saw a little fluid in his lungs on x-ray, and one in case it is something gut related. In the PICU he was on high-flow oxygen, trying to make him as comfortable as possible. By Monday night 2/4 he also was given an IV anti-nausea medication, which helped and he stopped vomiting. The next few days were waiting... Both viral and bacterial tests take 24-48 hours to show anything. Sometimes they show sooner, but to get a real negative, it has to be 48 hours.
high flow oxygen

puffy eyes
By Wednesday 2/6 his viral tests came back negative and his bacterial test was coming back positive for a common skin cell bacteria that got in through his PICC line likely. We were reassured that this is very common, nothing we did wrong while taking care of the PICC line, and one of the downfalls of the PICC. We were transferred from PICU to Peds floor, and also went down from 3 antibiotics to 1. Since ID doctors were pretty confident that the infection was coming from his PICC line, they were able to stop the ones for gut and pneumonia. The next few days were waiting to learn more about the infection, find the specific antibiotic he needs, and hopefully not pull his PICC line. We were warned that this particular bacteria (staph hominis - normal skin cells not harmful on the skin but really bad when in the bloodstream) are pesky and like to stick to PICC lines. Wednesday he got his first dose of lasix... They had really been overloading him with fluids to help fight infection, so he looked SO puffy and swollen. He couldn't really open his eyes... Lasix makes him pee out all the extra fluids :)


On Thursday 2/7 we were still getting blood culture tests back positive for infection, but by Thursday afternoon his blood culture helped ID doctors identify the best antibiotic for his infection. So we were able to get him off a broader antibiotic and on one more specific - oxacillon.
On Thursday I also began to talk to our GI doctor at the hospital and our new GI doctor about the plan for likely taking out his PICC line, how we begin to feed him then, and any other ideas for cause of his GI discomfort, output, and vomiting. The plan was to start trialing formula in his Jtube tube today (lately we had been working on increasing the rate of pedialyte we were doing in the Jtube, but hadn't put formula through his J in a month). So around 9:30pm Thursday 2/7 he started half strength formula (half formula and half Pedialyte) at a rate of 5 - SO SLOW. To give perspective, back in beginning of December he was doing a rate of 31 and doing mostly formula... So this was a safe plan to start at, yet he didn't tolerate it. He slept from 10-10:30pm, and then was up the rest of the night whining and crying... And that was just the beginning of the spiral downward. Friday 2/8 he stayed awake all day and went through cycles of calm, crying, and laughing. They tried a new formula that was easier to digest and tried morphine for pain. Nothing worked. He whined all night Friday night and now hadn't really slept in days... So Saturday afternoon 2/9 they stopped the formula feeds through the Jtube and switched it back to straight Pedialyte. Pretty instant difference in Eli after he took a comfortable nap in the afternoon... Still lots of on and off fussiness, but slept a little better Saturday night than Friday night. Sunday 2/10 - blood cultures still positive for infection, so at 10pm Eli's PICC line was pulled at his bedside (no anesthesia needed). The ID team was hopeful with the PICC line gone that they'd be better able to stop the infection. Because we were only doing Pedialyte by Jtube... he needed more nutrition and access, so he got a peripheral IV in his hand.

 facetiming Ava is always an adventure
puffy hand

Monday 2/11 showed that the blood drawn from his PICC line yesterday was positive, but drawn from blood draws was negative... Step in the right direction. He had an OK day, some fussiness.. And basically went to bed for the night at 3:30pm - not our normal Eli (red flag). Monday night he started TPN in his peripheral IV for nutrition... and by Tuesday mid morning his IV blew. TPN in peripheral IVs is harsh on the veins, and Eli has really hard to stick and small veins in general... So it was not surprising when it blew, but not good. A symptom of TPN in the system is swelling, so Eli had a huge hand Tuesday that didn't go away for a while. It took all afternoon for nurses and doctors to get a new IV in - poor guy was stuck a ton of times... nurse tried, PICU tried, NICU tried, and ultimately an anesthesiologist had to do it by getting a deeper IV in by ultrasound. Eli had some spit-ups Tuesday morning (red flag 2) - and then again sleeping most of the afternoon & evening. Tuesday he also had his second negative in a row for his blood cultures for the infection = 2 days negative are enough to say infection is gone. He would continue antibiotics 7 days from the pull of the PICC line. We began talking and scheduling anesthesia to put a new PICC line back in.

Tuesday - Friday (2/12-2/15) were pretty stressful days for us due to communication and fighting for what we felt is best for Eli, and Eli taking a turn for the worse. Ultimately, deep down in our gut we have always thought/ wondered if something bigger is going on in his GI system to cause him so much pain and difficulty to digest feeds. So if Eli has to be put under for putting in the new PICC line, we were hoping to get some GI testing done as well, while the hospital team was recommending his brain MRI (something we do want done, but not our priority). All of these discussions continued during the week here and there, but got put on the back-burner when Eli took a turn for the worse on Wednesday 2/13. He looked pale all day, slept all day, lots of heaving, higher outputs in his Farrell bag, and was running warmer for his body temperatures. By early evening he did spike a higher fever, so the next 2 hours were a whirlwind. Lots of blood tests and the PICU team was in and out of our room evaluating. The PICU team felt we were stable enough to stay on the Peds floor, but a doctor on the Peds floor (that we love) pushed to get us back to PICU to have him more closely watched since we didn't know what was going on... Fever returning is a sign that infection could be back. Luckily that was his only fever, but he spent Valentine's Day mostly asleep and looking very puffy again. He had another IV blow Thursday morning, so he was on his third peripheral IV in 4 days. We really needed to get a PICC line back in him to feed him and have a better access for blood draws. So he was scheduled for a PICC line Friday, but whether any other tests would be done after was still up in the air... Friday morning threw us another surprise - Eli starting outputting blood in his Farrell bag (from his stomach)... So now we were also dealing with a gut bleed.
matching from afar

Ultimately all the miscommunication led to a care conference on Friday 2/15 where all of Eli's specialists, nurse, hospitalist, and care managers could be in one room together to hash out where do we go from here for Eli... We came up with some GI tests to do to help us rule out GI pain, he will do a brain MRI to check on disease progression, and then we'll all reconvene again to discuss results. After a very stressful week this felt like a success to have a plan. On Friday he only put in his PICC line because it requires minimal anesthesia, while the GI testing we want to do requires stronger anesthesia with intubation (something he can't do while he was in this fragile state). After his PICC line, he started his first ever blood transfusion. His hemoglobin had been low since Wednesday and he had been sleeping a lot... Both the infection and the amount of blood draws he has had are the cause for low hemoglobin. The transfusion definitely helped wake him up for a little bit Friday evening. After blood, he got another dose of lasix because he was still really puffy from IVs blowing, extra fluids, and then getting a lot of blood.
1st blood transfusion
Saturday we found out Eli was still negative for blood cultures (no bacterial infection back) and he was negative for viral tests. So back to the Peds floor he went. He did have low potassium levels, likely due to the lasix... But something to watch for. Another trend for the weekend was high blood pressure readings. His blood pressure had been on the higher end of normal a lot of his hospital stay this time (typical with infection), but as of the weekend he has been getting consistent high blood pressure readings. He was pretty out of it this weekend and with all the symptoms going on that were all over the place, the pediatrician on for the weekend (another one we really like) recommended a CT scan. The results came back normal. So the weekend & so far this week, it is a delicate dance of lasix and making him pee out the 3 extra pounds of fluid he has gained recently, but also watching his potassium and protein levels. Monday he did a kidney ultrasound (since potassium and blood pressure can be linked to kidney functioning) and a small bowel follow through. Both tests did not have any concerning or new findings.

As of Tuesday 2/19 Eli was more alert and awake than he has been in a week. Getting fluid out of him will help his blood vessels work less, which will over all make him less tired. Tuesday and Wednesday are days of rest for him... really working on getting fluid off of him and hoping to get blood pressure down. Big test day is Thursday 2/21... He will be intubated with anesthesia for GI upper and lower scopes and brain MRI. Once these tests are done, the plan is to re-meet in a care conference fashion to talk about results and planning for Eli's pain and feeds.

To say this hospital stay has been stressful is an understatement. Mostly because we are dealing with new things, and because we were just here for 2 weeks in January! Eli has never had to go back to the PICU after leaving the PICU... He's never had a bacterial infection before... Never had a blood transfusion... etc. This has officially become our longest stay in the hospital ever. We have been in the hospital more in 2019 than we have been home. Poor sensitive Ava doesn't understand it all and just really misses her family. At this point we have asked the doctors to find us an apartment to live in at the hospital so we don't have to sleep on couches and keep going back and forth from our house :)


Praises!

  • Got rid of the infection! And an easy anesthesia to put a new PICC line in!
  • Lots of people at the hospital who know and love Eli... and are willing to help us fight for what's best for him
  • Lots of help with Ava again... sleepovers with her besties, her in-home daycare that she loves, MIL driving up, sister & sister-in-law flying in to help, etc!
  • Lots more food, gift cards, flowers, and more... always puts a smile on our face!
  • A continued understanding from work... so many people willing to help fill in for me while I'm away and helping make this as easy as possible to be with Eli at the hospital
  • Continued help at the hospital with Eli when possible... his nurse, babysitter, and family sitting with him so he's never alone and I can go to work some days

Prayers:

  • Lower blood pressure
  • Tests on Thursday show us something... So that we have a better direction for pain management and feeding him. The thought right now is that they probably won't show us anything - and we will still plan if they don't! - but if they show us something, it's easier to plan to resolve issues found.
  • A conducive, proactive care conference in the near future that allows us to all feel on the same page for Eli's best interest
  • Being a family of 4 at home again soon...

My Soul Thirsts For You
“O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water. So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory. Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you. So I will bless you as long as I live; in your name I will lift up my hands. My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food, and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips, when I remember you upon my bed, and meditate on you in the watches of the night; for you have been my help, and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy. My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me. But those who seek to destroy my life shall go down into the depths of the earth; they shall be given over to the power of the sword; they shall be a portion for jackals. But the king shall rejoice in God; all who swear by him shall exult, for the mouths of liars will be stopped.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭63‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Sunday, February 17, 2019

Pain Management

December 2018

besties Christmas sleepover 2018
bringing Christmas cheer to the ER

We started December on an OK note! We were really close to full strength feeds on 2 out of his 3 feeds for the day… We were still struggling with some gas & BM pain, but feeling more hopeful to be getting close to full strength feeds. But after the first week of December, Eli started to get increasingly uncomfortable. Then, some of his medications began leaking and ultimately on the night of 12/11/18 our night nurse couldn’t get his feeds to go through the Jtube. On my way to work I was on the phone with our Journey Cares team and leaving a message for our GI doctor… then when I got there, I basically turned right around to take Eli to the ER because everything the nurses and doctors heard made it sound like Eli’s Jtube was clogged. Not long after being in the ER, this was confirmed. We did a lot of x-rays, nose swabs, labs, and ultimately a contrast test which puts dye through his G & J tubes to see if they can see any clogs. Right away it showed a twist in the line near his Gtube and a complete clog at the end of his Jtube... We waited around in the ER for a few hours while they coordinated with surgery to be able to take out his GJtube and replace it. Unfortunately when we got to surgery prep, we found out his size GJtube was out of stock... a problem at the time we didn't realize how big would be for us later! After surgery, we found out the tubing they had to put in was much shorter than his original tubing... The sign or symptom we were told to look for was for increased reflux incase the formula more easily came back up from his intestines in to his stomach. Anesthesia is never fun for Eli to wake up from and especially when he does these surgeries because they have to fill his stomach with air, and his own gassy tummy is already painful enough for him.

The rest of December was so busy getting ready for Christmas and for Florida. Our very spoiled children had a Christmas celebration of some sorts every weekend in December! One very cool opportunity we had was a special needs Christmas party through Eli's Journey Cares program. It was awesome to be around other families that had the same equipment, seats, and challenges as we do! And at this party, we got our family picture with Santa [above] :) Ava was skeptical of Santa, but really liked Mrs. Claus. (Santa & Mrs. Claus are the chaplain at Journey Cares and his wife!)



We ended 2018 in Florida... On a family vacation with my family! It was wonderful to be in warm weather and have lots of help. Unfortunately right after arriving... Eli had a few days with no bowel movements and was in a lot of pain... Some of what we've gotten used to, but also more extreme than usual. Once we got him more regular in the beginning of the trip, he still had on and off periods of extreme pain - scream crying. He slept in our arms most nights of the trip, needed lots of rocking/ bouncing, and needed a heating pad on his tummy a lot of the time. The day we were flying home (1/4/19), Eli & Ava both caught the cold that everyone was passing around in the family. Eli spiked a fever, slept a lot, and looked awful... We were thankful to be home, but really worried about him.

January 2019


We were home for one day from Florida (1/5/19) and got to unpack, do some laundry, and put away our Christmas decorations. Thankfully Eli actually had a more comfortable day and no fever. However, at night he turned for the worse. He took a long time to go to sleep (lots of crying) and was up scream crying from 3-6am (with nothing working to help him - we tried all our tricks!) and eventually passed out from crying so much from 6-8am. I was on the phone in the middle of the night with Journey Cares & our pediatrician trying to figure out what was going on and what to do. We never obviously want to go to the ER, but usually end up there... We were REALLY hoping this time around it was just an ear infection or something - maybe one time we'll catch that break right?! So we tried to go to the pediatrician's office first, but when they quickly found nothing... I took Eli straight to the ER (already had our bags packed in the car - we know this journey all too well!). Upon arriving, they do all their normal workup they do with Eli... nose swabs, blood tests, x-rays & ultrasounds. Based on what I was describing... The ER doctor had a suspicion of Intussusception - and this was confirmed with a quick contrast test. Intussusception is at type of bowel obstruction.

So from the ER to surgery to the regular Peds floor we went... He had to have surgery because his Intussusception was around the end of his Jtube, so it had to come out. And likely, the cause of the Intussusception was that the Jtube put in back in December was too short/not his correct size. We were told that Intussusception is VERY painful, so poor Eli's pain for the last week or two was real pain... And explains why nothing was working to help. He's such a trooper. Once we settled in our Peds floor room, we knew we'd at least be there for the week because Intussusception requires 3 days of gut rest. Once it healed, we were hopeful to put in a new GJtube and get back to 2019 life at home...

missing each other so much
During the few days of rest, we were hoping to talk to some doctors (GI, palliative, and other specialists) about what to do with all the GI pain Eli had been experiencing lately, his weight loss, and not tolerating Jtube feeds. So, a care conference was scheduled for 1/11/19 to discuss several of our concerns... Eli was scheduled for surgery to put his GJtube put in on 1/10/19 (after 3 days of rest); however, that got cancelled when we found out the hospital was still out of stock of the right size GJtube... And we weren't going to put in the incorrect size again! Surgery was rescheduled for 1/11/19 and we were told his GJtube size was being overnighted... But the morning of 1/11/19 we found out that the correct size GJtube was still not in - so the care conference topic turned in to: "what do we do now?!" The team came up with a couple other ways to feed him, but those were ultimately out of stock as well... So after our care conference, Eli went into anesthesia to get his first PICC line (basically a permanent IV line that leads directly to the heart and can be used for nutrition or medicine). This is something we had already been looking into as an option to help him gain weight. Surgery went well and the weekend ahead was a weekend of rest waiting for the GJtube surgery for Monday (1/14/19)...
PICC line!
Because I've wondered what it would be like to start feeding Eli again in his gut and because he had had such a long gut rest, I asked if we could start doing some formula by Gtube while we waited for his GJtube. So the weekend 1/12 & 1/13... Eli was getting full nutrition through his PICC line and we were trial-ing half-strength formula in his Gtube (his stomach - the only access we had in his gut at this time)... and he had a GREAT weekend! Monday 1/14 we found out the GJtube was still not in stock and higher-up people at the hospital had to get involved to get the correct size GJtube in on Tuesday 1/15/19... And he had his 3rd round of anesthesia in 9 days (to take out old GJ, put in the PICC line, and now put in a new GJ). This surgery went well and we talked discharge for Wednesday 1/16/19... But Wednesday took a bad turn. Eli had seizures all morning and lots of scream crying. Our neurologist chimed in to say that the amount of anesthesia Eli had definitely lowered his seizure threshold and so we decided to increase his Keppra a little. Wednesday he had an EEG and some ultrasounds to check his brain and stomach. The EEG showed some irritated areas that were likely for seizure activity... So we talked discharge for Thursday 1/17. BUT there seems to never be a dull moment... Because we were supposed to be discharged on Wednesday 1/16, there was no TPN (his full nutrition through his PICC line) ordered for Eli to change to at 9pm Wednesday night when it needed to be changed. TPN is a complicated order and not something that the hospital is able to make on the spot... So Eli was not fed from 9pm Wednesday until 12:30pm Thursday when home health could come hook him up to a bag that was meant for home use.

Thursday 1/17 was a rough day for Eli... Lots of crying and pain like we'd seen at home. It was hard to say... was he hungry or experiencing more pain? We did a test to make sure Intussusception hadn't come back (it didn't)... so we didn't want to discharge without knowing where his pain was coming from. Ultimately we had some hard conversations with doctors Thursday and Friday 1/18 about pain management... Many doctors were beginning to think that Eli's pain was mostly neurological and not related to something, and for this type of pain at the hospital all they could do was give him morphine. So ultimately, we would need to figure out what works best for Eli at home. So we discharged on Friday, 1/18, not feeling great about where we go with Eli's pain...

The weekend was a lot of on and off pain, which left Eric and I frustrated and not sure what do for Eli. Monday 1/21 we had our nurse and a doctor from Journey Cares over to our house to talk about options for pain management... Because we knew we couldn't keep living the way we are. The 2 ideas for helping with GI pain were Diazepam (muscle relaxer) and Clonidine, so both prescriptions were filled and a it was a few days of waiting until we could get those. Luckily before we were hospitalized we started looking in to other options for our GI care. There have been several communication issues with our current GI team, and as Eli's parents - we feel it has not been what's best for Eli. This led us to find a newer doctor in our network that EVERYONE loves... our pediatrician, doctors at Lutheran General, nurses, etc. It seems like everyone knows him - went to school with him, worked with him, or did residency with him. So we had several doctors at Lutheran General who called him the weeks we were hospitalized to give him some insight into Eli and prepare him for our appointment with him on 1/22. Eric brought Eli to this appointment and instantly felt heard, understood, and an idea of where to go. This new GI doctor had a new medication to start Eli on to treat him for Small Intestinal Bacterial Overgrowth Syndrome - something that is difficult to test for, but based on Eli's symptoms sounds like he could have. This doctor also had a few more tests he wanted to run before we assume that all of this was neurological pain. This appointment left us feeling a little better for a plan of attack and wanted to begin to figure out how to transition care over to this new doctor.

needing lots of heating pad lately

As planned back from December - we had a busy day on Thursday 1/24. Eli had his first wheelchair fitting! It was a lot of fun... We got to talk all about our needs for taking him out and about, and it's AMAZING what can be custom created for him. His wheelchair will be navy, look more like a stroller, and have all kinds of attachments to help us transport his equipment. Eli had a blast getting measured for this wheelchair and thought it was funny all the positions they had to put him in. After this, he had a car seat safety test to make sure he was as safe as possible in the car. Special needs car seats typically don't start until the child gets older... So we found out currently we have the best car seat for him and that the PT at Lutheran will begin to work on finding Eli a neck collar to help support his head more in his seat. After these 2 appointments for Eli - we had an outpatient care conference for Eli with all of his specialists to come up with a plan of how we feed him comfortably and where we go from here... His PICC line is hopefully a temporary plan until we can work on his feeds in his gut more. We talked about pain management and getting another brain MRI soon to check disease progression. It was a long, exhausting day... but steps forward.

The next week we began some new meds, started Pedialyte through Eli's Jtube again (we had been giving him gut rest since leaving the hospital a week ago until we knew more about his pain), and kept in contact with doctors about where we were at with the feeding plan. But after only being home for 2 weeks after a 2 week hospital stay... Eli began looking awful - in a different way this time. On 2/3 (Sunday), Eli spiked a fever and had some spit-ups/vomits... Eli hasn't had reflux spit-ups since October, so we knew something wasn't right! Ultimately the journey back to the hospital began again... NEXT BLOG! ;)


Praises!
  • The amount of family and friends who stepped up to help us during these crazy few weeks... We received so many meals at home and hospital, gift cards, & visitors. 
  • We had so many people willing to watch Ava and help us with her schedule (including her in-home daycare!)
  • My mom/dad and nurses for sitting with Eli at the hospital so that Eric and I can try to work.
  • A VERY understanding work place that is doing whatever they can to help support us during this time.
  • Spending a night at the hospital on your birthday was made much sweeter by the flowers, cookies, and treats delivered to our room!
  • New GI doctor.
  • A team of many specialists trying to help give Eli the best life he can live.
  • Eli & Ava being the sweetest duo - their reaction to being back home together will forever be engraved in my mind!
  • Eric and I easily being able to pick up training on PICC lines & TPN.

Prayers
  • Finding the best specialist team for Eli to never stop advocating for him.
  • Pain management and solutions to his pain.
  • Not becoming reliant on his PICC line and being able to feed him through his gut.
  • Rest and less stress for our family in general.

Song from a band at our church: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt57pKLknSQ
Yes I Will:
I count on one thing
The same God that never fails
Will not fail me now
You won't fail me now
In the waiting

The same God who's never late
Is working all things out
You're working all things out
Yes I will, lift You high in the lowest valley
Yes I will, bless Your name
Oh, yes I will, sing for joy when my heart is heavy
All my days, oh yes I will